Did I do this?

Every once in a while, do you step back from your life and take a look at what you are doing with it? Well, I did and I was amazed.

I just took a course online from Melody Ross at the Brave Girls Club. Melody helped me to "see" my life as it really was. She told me to look at my life as a "House" with walls and windows and everything that comes with a house. At first I looked around and it didn't look that bad. The landscaping was fine. My "House"  looked fine, even great on the outside. I mean, I didn't have any plants in the pots on the front porch but it's winter afterall.

I walked up to the front door and realized the paint could be freshened up a bit and then I heard a lot of noise.

So I opened up the door to my "House" and realized there was a dinner party going on and  I didn't even know I had invited anyone over. They were eating all of my food, talking about my decor and blaring the music (the kind I don't even like). I stood there thinking for a moment and it dawned on me, I let them come inside my "home" and mess it all up. They tracked mud in and broke my favorite vase and told me that dinner wasn't that great. After they left in a hurry, didn't clean up and never even said "thank you", I looked around at the damage and thought to myself  "Did I do this?!"

So, I got upset for a few minutes, days, weeks and then I decided to start "cleaning up". I realized that I had so much more to "DO" with this one precious life. I realized that only I am responsible for what I do, say, feel and think. I make choices every single day and I get to decide what happens in my life from now on. I know we all say these exact words  and we all know that we are in charge of our choices but do you really live it? We have this one extraordinary life to do some pretty amazing things if we are very Brave and are ready to take that jump! So, just like my 1st post, I am now standing on the edge AND  I have taken the jump and I am excited to see where I land.

I have started by filling my house with things I LOVE. Like the fabric I used to recover my dinning room chairs with.

And the curtains I made with my Mom.

  The bird I  painted  into my journal one day after watcing it  outside of my window.

I learned how to sew onto paper and right into my journal. It just might be my new favortie thing...

How cool is that?

All of this was "Handmade by JillyG" with my own love and sweat and I can only think to myself, "Did I do this?" and the answer is "Yes!" So think about your own "House" and remember that you are in charge of it all.

Only you and try to remember that things should be beautiful even when they don't seem to be.

 It's there if you look hard enough as long as you are creating it!